Thursday, September 17, 2015

Meh

I honestly don't know if losing the weight was worth it from an emotional standpoint. I used to have high self esteem. Thinking I looked good even when heavy. After losing 151 pounds, I look good in clothes, but not naked. I have loose skin every where, my arms, stomach and thighs. It's pretty horrible. I feel so ugly, and unattractive. I don't want to be naked, or have sex. I feel disgusting. I lost my boobs, and my butt. I am shapeless, and drooping. It sucks to work so hard to lose the weight,and then you are not satisfied by the way you look after. And since I am chronically ill, I am also not happy with how I feel,seeing as how I am in pain 100% of my time alive and sleepy.

1 comment:

  1. Natalie
    I love you so very much. I think the surgery was and is the culprit in your illness. I hope that you can take this illness and depression by the reigns and get your life back. I am still fat and I have a the same type of thinking about myself. I feel like I look amazing....then I see a picture. ha ha

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